Long way to go

So, it's been a while. Apologies to all the friends and family who have asked me what's going on, why I haven't updated this blog. To quell any concerns: I am fine. I am actually ridiculously happy here, enjoying Berlin more and more every day as the weather gets warmer and the friendships grow stronger.

Since it's been a couple months since I posted, time to play catch-up. For starters, I moved into a new flat last weekend, from Mitte to Prenzlauer Berg. It's my third apartment since getting here at the beginning of February, and I am sick of moving. We've been subletting, since we don't have furniture, but this new place is basically unfurnished. It makes me think that our next place should be unfurnished too, because we have had to purchase a few things for this flat. Also, I've been buying a lot of things in orange: toothbrush, toilet paper, sheets, pillows...

And to pay for all of the orange things I have been buying, I have a contract job with an old co-worker's company. It's basically more technical writing for software, but this time it's research on how their help system should be done, instead of writing the help itself. The job reminds me of why I don't like working - it takes time away from other things I wish I could focus on, like my own writing - but it pays the bills. Berlin is so cheap, once I finish this job it should cover my living expenses for at least a couple months.

That's one thing I love about this city: Berliners seem realize that there's a whole lot more to life than just working to make rent. Cheers to that, and I do mean Prost!

My days are full of music, and my nights, and days again...I love techno, and dancing has always been one of my most favorite things in the world, so I am definitely in the right city. I can go out any night of the week and dance until my feet hurt while listening to music that I love. Some recent highlights, without being too redundant:

- Rhythm & Sound live @ Panoramabar
- Ricardo Villalobos and Zip @ Club de Visionaire
- Carabina 3030 @ Berghain
- Ryan Crosson @ Watergate
- Rich Hawtin, Heartthrob, and Magda in an underground atomic bunker
- Matt Dear and Konrad Black @ Watergate
- Lee Curtiss @ Bar 25
- Luciano @ Arena
- Pheek @ Cassiopia
- Shaun Reeves, Miss Fitz, and Konrad Black @ Steinhaus
- Atomly @ Zentrale Randlage

Berlin is so full of good music, it's amazing. Sometimes I forget that there's another world here besides the techno scene; I spend so much time hanging out at people's houses watching people work on making music, and talking about music...it's almost difficult to not start making music yourself.

And so I made my first song. It's for the tribute compilation cd that's being put out for the one year anniversary of Alicia's death. I still can't believe that it's been a year. The cd is being put out on Dave Siska's new label Reverie; all of the songs on it use sounds that Alicia recorded, and posted on her Audible Frequency site.

I'm actually going back to Chicago on June 1, for the cd release party, but primarily for my brother's graduation. When my mom offered to buy me a ticket back for the weekend, I wasn't sure if I wanted to go. However, I'm really looking forward to it now. It'll be great to see my family and friends again, and to get a few more of the things I left in my mom's basement (yay, to wear something other than the same six tank tops all the time!). It's strange to have everything I own fit into two bags, but pretty liberating too.

I don't want to accumulate too much here, but I have accepted that I want to stay a little longer than originally intended, probably until winter really sets in. I've made some good friends here, and am so comfortable in Berlin. After four months I feel like I'm just now really getting the feel of the city, and I'm not ready to leave yet. So I can postpone departure; it's best to change plans when they feel like they should be altered instead of sticking to the original out of stubbornness.

I am still traveling though; on Friday I fly to Paris for a few days, and then head to a small town in the south of France for a family wedding. I haven't been there in five years, so it should be fun; plus I get to see my dad and stepmother. It'll be strange to leave Berlin, but probably good; hard to believe I'll be gone two weeks (a week in France, back in Berlin for one day, and then off to Chicago for a week). Time flies here, but it's so dense and packed: a week seems so long, because there's always something going on, always something to do.

And there are always visitors. Berlin living so far seems quite communal; we all take care of each other. Crash spaces are provided, drinks are shared, and food...I have never been anywhere that has such instant karma as Berlin. With people always hanging out though, there's not much downtime; I actually started jogging about a month ago because it gave me time to clear my head. That, and I can't afford a gym here.

I still practice yoga; my new room is huge, big enough to actually start teaching again, which is exciting. I had a friend over today and taught her a few things; when I get back from Chicago, I'd like to start having regular yoga sessions here for friends. It'll be good for them, and for me. We could all stand to be a little more grounded.

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I've been here in Berlin almost a month now. At first it was exciting, then strange, then various permutations of fun, frustrating, somewhat comfortable, and increasingly more familiar. Now, on a sunny Saturday afternoon, I can look around and honestly say to myself that I am happy here.

To update the housing situation: we did find a new flat, not as nice as the one that fell through, but pretty sweet in a different way. For starters, it's a loft right off Rosenthaler Platz, which is very Mitte. The area feels similar to the Milwaukee North and Damen intersection in Wicker Park of Chicago. The flat is one huge room and a separate bedroom; I get the bedroom and Atom has the main room. We are subletting it for March and April, and the owner makes techno, so he left his turntables and records and stuff. It's really nice to live with a stereo again.

But the most interesting thing about this new flat is that a friend of mine from Chicago, Ben Goldberger, stayed here in this exact apartment when he lived in Berlin a few years ago. Such a small world.

Right now Atom is in London for DMZ, and to meet Rob, who is flying in from Chicago to visit; they'll both be back here tomorrow night. I woke up this morning to an empty apartment and realized how much I kind of miss living by myself. In my life I've had something like 25 roommates, but spent the last year and a half living alone for the first time, which I loved. So now I am enjoying a quiet flat all to myself, before I meet up with a friend tonight for dinner.

It's funny to think about how easily I am meeting people here, or at least, it's so much easier than when I lived in Sydney. Maybe it's because I'm at a very different stage of my life now than I was then; maybe it's just Berlin.

So yes, things are going well. Doris and Tony were in from London last weekend, which was great. It was fun hanging out with old friends again, and Tony's set with Karl at Berghain was a blast. We didn't even get to the club till 4am, and got called wusses for only staying out till 8am. That still kind of blows my mind. In Chicago, I went out more than almost anyone I knew - as a consequence of working at home and living alone, I had to go out every night or else I went nuts. I also stayed out later than most people (except the friends I was staying out till dawn with), yet here, I feel like a bloody amateur.

It's been a month and my sleep schedule is still so strange. I don't get tired till at least 5am, but I guess that works. A regular yoga practice helps with the (lifelong) insomnia, somewhat. My dreams reflect the strangeness of my biorhythms, or something like that. Rather vivid and intense.

Also, I've been thinking about Alicia a lot lately. I know there's a pretty strong chance that I wouldn't be here if it weren't for her. And while I love Berlin, I'd be in Chicago in an instant to have her back again. So, I guess I'm just feeling a bit conflicted, and kind of sad in an esoteric, unresolveable way. It'll pass. I am so lucky, so glad that she was in my life, and that her passing could inspire me to get off my ass and actually travel, like I have always wanted to do.

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We're apartment-hunting again. The place we're in now was a February sublet only, and March 1st is next week, so the search is on. I was getting nervous; the Germans I talked to seemed to think it would take forever to find a flat, and they were concerned that we only had a week. I guess that's because all of the listings come out on Saturday mornings, and the flats are only shown on Saturdays.

However, we're not looking for a permanent home yet. So far, I like the whole sublet thing. Phone and internet are already set up, and I don't have to buy a bed or kitchen supplies. It's just much easier. And the sublets here are shown on a more flexible schedule than regular flats; we saw two on a Tuesday night, one of which I loved and we will probably move into next week.

The big news is, it looks like we are moving to Mitte. Friedrichshain is much cheaper, with a very collegiate feel: people hanging out all the time, dog poop everywhere, still a lot of squatters. But I surprised myself by wanting to live for a little while in a nicer neighborhood, with cultural things that extend beyond clubs and cafes. Maybe I'm just getting older, though I am only 28.

Plus, the place in Mitte is really nice. Well-maintained, recently remodeled, and with walls and walls of books (which made me swoon, since I only brought three books with me). Most importantly, we have a lot of friends coming to visit in the next couple months, some of whom will be needing a place to stay for an extended period of time, and it'll be nice to be able to give them a comfortable crashpad.

Funny though, I have a few German friends who I'd almost be a little shy about showing the new place to because it is so nice and we are paying a little more for it. (It's still ridiculously cheap by Chicago standards.) A lot people here seem to be really broke, and sometimes almost suspect of money. When Atom played at a squat bar on Monday, I tried to pay for my massive 1.50 Euro beer with a 10 Euro bill; the bartender sneered and asked if I had anything smaller. Of course, this was a breakcore party; there are more expensive clubs and such, like the one we went to our second night here to see Nick play.

I'm still having a bit of difficulty adjusting to the fact that I'm broke now. I quit my job three weeks ago and don't have a new one (note to self: start looking for more freelance writing gigs). In Chicago, I was used to having money and spending it on rounds of drinks and expensive sushi dinners without thinking twice. Here, I have to keep reminding myself that I am broke, partially because it's a difficult habit to break, and partially because even without a job I still have more money than a lot of the people I meet.

One of the reasons the clubs can go till the next morning or afternoon is because so few people work normal jobs in Berlin. Many are artists and musicians who can sleep till mid-afternoon and do their work at night. Others are on the welfare system, which is really different than the one in the US. It pays your rent, health care, and utilities, plus gives you 300 Euros a month for food, and you can stay on it as long as you want. Basically if you live cheaply, which you can do so easily and somewhat comfortably here, there's no real incentive to get off welfare. It's kind of no surprise to me then, that Berlin has a 20% unemployment rate. Not that I'm complaining; I didn't come here to get a job.

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Update: We didn't get the sweet place in Mitte. Damn. Back to looking...

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I figured I should post some pictures of my apartment. It was really nice to come straight here from the airport and not have to deal with a hostel. We have this place subletted for a month, and then need to find another flat. Right now we are in Kreuzberg-Friedrichshain, and I like it a lot. I want to do some more exploring, but I'd be fine if we found another place in this neighborhood.

My room:

Atom's room:

Kitchen:

Living room that we never use, could be a third bedroom:

Did I mention that this place is huge? Our lobby hallway gives you some kind of idea; Atom is 6'8" and he looks tiny standing in it:

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